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Doing my morning Facebook check, someone posted at the Official A-Kon Facebook Group's page that A-Kon "needs a mascot", which just set me off. What the heck have I working on all these 25 years? Literally hundreds of pieces of art work have been done for A-Kon's badges and staff t-shirts, all featuring Aki, Hitomi, and friends. It's insulting and considering we artists live for our work and it's recognition, extremely hurtful. Whether out of ignorance, indifference, or ingratitude, the hurt feelings remain the same. Years of hard work, developing skills, keeping to a motif, and trying to produce work of improving quality seems to be unappreciated, or worse unimportant. My part in A-kon is a small but visible part, I was there the night it was born, I was asked to let A-Kon use my Geishabot art, and to produce all that followed. I love doing it, even though at times I feel like I've been cast into the "outer darkness", only to make a brief appearance like a short period comet. Despite my work I remain unseen, but by a few that know me and those who stop by my convention table and discover who I am. I feel that I could fall off the planet, not another Geishabot ever be produced, and the average A-Kon goer would never notice. This has left me upset...angry, heartbroken, and disappointed. Please A-Koners, staff and convention goers alike, tell me that my work matters.
The Worm Has Turned and Is Packing An Uzi
"The Worm has turned and is packing an Uzi", a great line from the awesome film "Wolf", and appropriate to my life at this time. First, it's been two medical checks in the last six months and it can be officially said that I am in Remission!! My strength is slowly coming back, and I don't fatigue out as easily as I did before. In fact I've been working 9 to 10 hour days at work, five days a week at my job. Second, My job...the thing that pays my bills and insurance...well it moved me closer to home and promoted me to General Manager at that store. It was confirmed earlier this week, and my new pay is on the next check...woohoo!! The store I got was a wreck, but I'm whipping it into shape and already the biz is improving. Now all I need is a staff instead of the occasional staff loaned from another store...but that's in the works. Third, Got my main computer up and going...yay! That means access to my files, Photoshop, scanner, etc...and the internet access other than my stupid
Pushing forward...
It's been a hard haul with this whole cancer thing, the pandemic turmoil, the passing of my Mother, friends, and critters...and still working my mental & labor intensive and now very understaffed job this whole time. Yeah, working, while sick and weakened by chemo, but the bills weren't going to pay themselves and I needed the insurance that the company provided. This whole time dizzy, depressed, sick, and burnt out feeling. But damn it, I didn't come all this way through all this worldly hell just to give up. There were times I wanted to, and I broke down often...still do...and it would have been sooo easy to just give up. But I do have dreams, even with my passions beat down and subdued, dreams that I must pursue and most of all I have a life to live, even in a rather fucked up world that seems to get worse by the day. I've got to push on, it's going to be hard, but I will fight for my life and dreams. I have only three more post-cancer treatments left, one every two
I'm still alive, but it's been a hard time!
It's been a hard time these several months. Dealing with Follicuar Lymphoma and the chemo treatments all the while still working at my day job. Chemo made me sick and twitchy, conditions that haven't been very conducive to creating art or doing much at all but surviving. I painted a lot of tank miniatures, but cammo is easy especially in 6mm, and I did those for morale. Every week I would have blood drawn, have evals done, and then every three weeks chemo treatment...just after recovering from the last. Headaches, horrible fatigue, mild shakiness, nausea, and other such fun after effects. Lost my hair too, not that I had too much anyway. Last week was my last chemo treatment and signs look really good. I went from being lit up like a Christmas tree in the PET scan to one lone spot of cancer. I will never truly be rid of this disease but it can be contained but my doctors are extremely pleased with the results. So there's hope for tomorrow. Fuck Cancer. Another
It is Alive...
I am still alive and living in an undisclosed location, and still doing art...slowly. Today I FINALLY got internetz up and going, ready for a restart...mostly...other issues hang overhead. Summer 2019 ended on some bummer notes that got me to where I am now, and Winter 2019-2020 delivered worse...a whole lot worse that interfered with my ability to produce art beyond roughs. I was stricken with what was first thought to be a really bad eye infection but in late January was found to be a tumor in my eye socket behind the eye. CT Scans found a very large ( bigger than the eyeball itself ) tumor, that was pushing the eye forward and out. Later the next month, UT Southwestern got involved ( great folks by the way ) and after a bit of studying and planning the tumor was removed in mid-March. This required going through my eyelid, and cutting a "window" in my skull near the temple. Not fun, but still done and afterwards I was sent home. A week later after some rest and recovery
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Illegitimi non carborundum...
Is this coming from the A-kon management people, or just whoever is running the facebook page? If the latter, to hell with 'em and move on.
Is this coming from the A-kon management people, or just whoever is running the facebook page? If the latter, to hell with 'em and move on.